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About a year ago I was paralyzed with an overwhelming feeling of despair. I was very happy in every aspect of my life, but my work life just didn’t feel right. Although I had recently switched jobs and was pleased with my decision, I couldn’t help but feel that it, too, wasn’t what I was supposed to be doing. During my life I have tried several different career routes, had many moments of despair like this, and was still lost.
I couldn’t go back to my old methods of dealing with this situation; they clearly didn’t work for me. This time I did something completely new.
I turned to my spirit guides for an answer.
This idea came from many hours I had spent listening to podcasts about the afterlife. For those of you who don’t know what spirit guides are, they are souls or entities, many of whom have lived on Earth before, that choose to be with us, love us, and guide us. They know why we came here and what we wanted to do with our time.
There would be no harm in trying this method and so I gave it a shot. During a meditation session, after calming my nerves and slowing my heartrate, I simply asked my guides to nudge me back on track and show me the way. Like, ‘Hey guides, good to have you here. I’m lost. Please show me the way. Appreciate your time and love.’
Then I let it go, just like that. The answer could come anytime in the coming weeks or months in any form, like a gut feeling, a voice inside my head, or an idea suggested by someone else, usually randomly and out of nowhere.
For the answer to come to me, I knew I had to be present and live in the moment (#mindfulness). Apparently, the spirits don’t live in the past or the future where our minds tend to dwell. To speed up the process, I meditated regularly to practice presence of mind. Then the answer came.
The answer came not when I was meditating one day, but when I was washing arugula, looking for the yellowed ones to compost. It was a very delicate work, and every leaf required my full attention. I wasn’t thinking. Has that ever happened to you? When was the last time you weren’t thinking? All I remember was that I was touching, feeling, and judging every single leaf. My mind was fully engaged in that very moment. Then it came.
Out of nowhere, a voice inside my head that wasn’t my own, that was gender neutral, and unfamiliar in its tone, told me to write.
It spoke in my mother tongue (Farsi) and all it said was one word: ‘Benevis’. It is literally an instruction to write, unlike the English equivalent that could be misunderstood with ‘right’ or ‘rite’, etc.
I knew it wasn’t me who said that. The word caught me by surprise, and I was no longer in the arugula leaves. My heart dropped as soon as it happened, an indication that it wasn’t me. It was entirely out of context because writing was nowhere near my head, not in that moment and not in any moment in the previous days or weeks; another indication.
I took the advice.
First, I signed up for a storytelling course and started writing poems as well. Right now, I am busy writing my first ever children's book. This blog is also another way I followed the spirits' advice.
I suggest you give it a try as well. Leave a comment here when you do and tell me all about your experience. What do you do when you feel stuck in life?
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Love,
Sepi 🍓